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| Angels Dancing Round |
[03 May 2006|01:20am] |
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Hi, I was wondering if anyone had the "Angels Dancing Around" mp3 worship song that they could possibly send it to me. It's also known as "Angels Dancing" so I would really appreciate it. The lyrics go:
Angels dancin' round, as I hear the sound of You
Is this you drawing near, O Lord
Please come take away my fear
To open up again
To open up again...my friend
There is no place I'd rather be
O Lord than here beholding Thee
Open up my eyes so I can
See Your beauty, Your beauty Lord
When I am weak Lord You are strong
Help me through the day when it's so long
I run into your open arms of love
The way You move takes away my fear
The way You move lets me know you are near
The way You move captivates my soul
The way You move it makes me whole
i would REALLY appreciate this! thank you so much.
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[08 Apr 2005|12:36am] |
I just finished drinking a glass of milk accompanied by a couple Oreo cookies. The process goes 1) dunk cookie in milk 2) hold for a couple seconds, the amount of which varies based on the density of the cookie matter, until it reaches a point at which it kind of melts in your mouth 3) remove cookie from milk, sometimes followed by 4) a small shake of the cookie to let the excess liquid drip away 5) bite off the portion of the cookie that was dunked.
And of course, this is all fine and good, but I noticed a problem that occurs near the end of the glass of milk. Sometimes, I look into the glass of milk and notice only a little bit left. However, I still have maybe half a cookie remaining. And that little bit of milk will not be sufficient to fully soak the remaining cookie to its correct consistency, so there will inevitably be some left over cookie. And that's bad, because if you end up with more cookie than milk, you're forced to eat the cookie without milk, and your thirst won't be quenched. The other way around can happen just as easily, and because milk doesn't taste any good without the help of the cookie, you end up being forced to drink some bland stuff.
The only way to really solve this problem is the same way you get better at, say, debating or causing mass genocide: practice. I've calculated a pretty good cookie to glass of milk ratio of 2:1. But of course that also depends on the size of the cookie/glass of milk, so it's really a judgment call. I've gotten pretty good at dunking a good portion of the cookie each time to end up evenly. But if you screw up your calculations, you'll be stuck in a perpetual cycle of getting more milk/cookies to end up evenly and sooner or later you'll run out of one of them and boy you are in trouble. And maybe morbidly obese.
So I think the moral of the story here is: just don’t eat oreos -- they’re bad for you anyways.
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[08 Apr 2005|12:35am] |
Finally, the long-awaited college decisions are in. However, seniors have yet to “chillax,” since there are still scholarships to apply for. I have been scavenging the Internet for scholarship contests so that I can garner some money. In my virtual travels, I have found some weird scholarships (you can find such scholarships at websites such as finaid.org, fastweb.com or collegeboard.com; most of them first make you fill out a survey so they can match you with relevant scholarships that are fitting for your profile).
That was a long parenthetical aside. (It's also cool to take note of your own ridiculously long parenthetical phrases, because it shows that you actually do have knowledge of proper grammar and are purposefully flaunting the rules out of your supercool rebelliousness.)
Okay, back to the story. A few months ago I encountered the most moronic scholarship I've seen yet. From the American Fire Sprinkler Association:
The AFSA National Scholarship Essay Contest is open to high school seniors who plan to further their education at a college, university or certified trade school. You must write a 700 to 1,000 word essay on the following topic: A successful fire sprinkler activation in your town, area, or state. Essays will be judged on content, accuracy, creativity/originality, and spelling/grammar/punctuation.
The essay theme for the 2004-2005 contest in California (they have different guidelines for different states!) is as follows:
Write about a successful fire sprinkler activation in your town, area, or state. Students are recommended to talk to their local fire department for information, and to include some of the following details in their essay: cause of fire, number of fire sprinklers that activated, actions of fire fighters when they arrived at the scene. Also discuss how local media (TV, newspapers, etc.) reported the fire. (i.e., Was the media coverage positive or did it focus only on water damage from the sprinklers?)
This is already pretty ridiculous, right? But wait! They require a PROPERLY FORMATTED WORKS CITED PAGE to make sure you didn't make up your fire sprinkler story. I guess this is a justifiable requirement, since students would otherwise invent melodramatic tales of fire sprinklers kicking in just in time to save a poor defenseless baby from the licking flames of doom.
Even worse, the AFSA included a warning against plagiarism in the entry guidelines, because clearly there are many stories of fire sprinkler activations out there, easily accessible and just waiting to be stolen for use in a scholarship contest.
Actually, the worst part is that people that I know probably did try to get this scholarship, because the pay is pretty good (around $1,000). Oh, the things we do for free college money…
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[09 Feb 2005|09:28pm] |
was reading Joshua today...there are so many outstanding verses, so uplifting.
Joshua 23
Joshua's Farewell to the Leaders
1 After a long time had passed and the LORD had given Israel rest from all their enemies around them, Joshua, by then old and well advanced in years, 2 summoned all Israel-their elders, leaders, judges and officials-and said to them: "I am old and well advanced in years. 3 You yourselves have seen everything the LORD your God has done to all these nations for your sake; it was the LORD your God who fought for you. 4 Remember how I have allotted as an inheritance for your tribes all the land of the nations that remain-the nations I conquered-between the Jordan and the Great Sea [a] in the west. 5 The LORD your God himself will drive them out of your way. He will push them out before you, and you will take possession of their land, as the LORD your God promised you.
6 "Be very strong; be careful to obey all that is written in the Book of the Law of Moses, without turning aside to the right or to the left. 7 Do not associate with these nations that remain among you; do not invoke the names of their gods or swear by them. You must not serve them or bow down to them. 8 But you are to hold fast to the LORD your God, as you have until now.
9 "The LORD has driven out before you great and powerful nations; to this day no one has been able to withstand you. 10 One of you routs a thousand, because the LORD your God fights for you, just as he promised. 11 So be very careful to love the LORD your God.
12 "But if you turn away and ally yourselves with the survivors of these nations that remain among you and if you intermarry with them and associate with them, 13 then you may be sure that the LORD your God will no longer drive out these nations before you. Instead, they will become snares and traps for you, whips on your backs and thorns in your eyes, until you perish from this good land, which the LORD your God has given you.
14 "Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the LORD your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed. 15 But just as every good promise of the LORD your God has come true, so the LORD will bring on you all the evil he has threatened, until he has destroyed you from this good land he has given you. 16 If you violate the covenant of the LORD your God, which he commanded you, and go and serve other gods and bow down to them, the LORD's anger will burn against you, and you will quickly perish from the good land he has given you."
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I really am glad I am reminded that all of God's promises don't fail. I guess one of my worst characteristics is doubt. If there is one person that is fighting against a thousand people, that one person will win if God is on his side. It's "disproportionate power" as said by Ron Hutchcraft*. It's an unthinkable possibility, but Leviticus 26:8 says "Five of
you will chase a hundred and a hundred of you will chase ten thousand and
your enemies will fall by the sword before you."
When I'm out with some of my friends, I feel really outnumbered when we're all discussing something and it's something I don't agree with, especially if it goes against the Bible. I struggle to defend myself or sometimes for the sake of no arguing, I leave it alone or I yield or I compromise with what they have to say because I feel so cornered. When there is a challenging task before me and i look at the small scope of my abilities, i often ask HOW? HOW CAN I DO THIS WITH ONLY WHAT I HAVE? but that's why God gives us verses...Paul once said "If God is for us, who can be against us."
I cant hold back anymore because I'll probably miss the amazing thing God wants to do. I have to get in the habit of comparing my challenges to the power of God, not merely to my own abilities. But for sure if I keep this concept in the front of my mind and APPLY it, the LESS there's going to be of ME, the MORE there is going to be of GOD, and the GREATER the victory is going to be.
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[08 Jan 2005|11:01am] |
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it's 3rd period right now...i'm pretty drenched. yuck. my shoes aren't really made for this kind of weather either, and i constantly wipe my glasses (how nerdy, i know). but you know, despite the complaints of most people, i realize that this water is so miniscule compared to the devastation of the tsunami. umbrellas couldvent even protect them! everytime someone says "i am so wet.." i just want to say..." YOU DONT KNOW WET, my friend."
despite many many prayers, i'm still trying to understand why a tragedy of this scale occured...ending 2004 on such a sad note. it's all God's doing...but is it ever God's intention? i fully believe that there is a good reason for this. first of all, so many people underestimate God's power and how much strength He has. approximaely, 24,000 people die of hunger everyday. but compared to other global news media coverage, these 'mere everyday happenings' are not reported as much. i guess it takes this huge tsunami to really open our eyes, open our hearts... sigh. if we focused more of our attention to people who live..prayed for those families...matthew 25:37-40.
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[08 Jan 2005|11:00am] |
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i am terrified to be near you, terrified that i will end up falling in love all over again with your straight teeth or the curves of your shoulders or the way you shrug your shoulders. when you leave, i stand on my toes to give me a kiss and you bow your head until your lips press against my temple. i am paralyzed with the possibility of our mouths colliding.
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[28 Dec 2004|12:10am] |
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Asian Disaster Death Toll Passes 22,000
more than statistics
i'm sure many of you guys have heard about the unfortunate news: On Sunday, there was a massive earthquake of 9.0 magnitude sent 500-mph waves surging across the Indian Ocean and Bay of Bengal, causing the deadliest tsunami since 1883. "More than 12,000 people died in Sri Lanka, nearly 5,000 in Indonesia, and 4,000 in India. The International Red Cross, which reported 23,700 deaths, said it was concerned that diseases like malaria and cholera could add to the toll."
You hear the number of people that died and you feel sad. i think we grow up hearing different "staggering numbers", such as "3 million people died of AIDS last year" or "every week 250,000 children die of malnutrition and other diseases" and maybe for a moment, a fleeting moment, most of us say "yeah that's sad, what a tragedy", but then we move on. i'm reminded by these lyrics: "a billion people died on the news tonight, but not so many cried at the terrible sight...why don't newscasters cry when they read about people who die? at least they could be decent enough to put just a tear in their eyes"[jack johnson]
the word death itself has lost a lot of meaning to people. These people have strictly become a number to most of us, and I can’t stand it. What I want to do each time I hear news like this is to think about it, to lift up their families up and pray...pray for strength for their families and everyone affected by this unfortunate event. God has given us a spirit of compassion that we're supposed to use to love the world...the people of this world. i really encourage you guys to pray for these people...they need it...
my heart hurts for this world.
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[12 Sep 2004|03:34pm] |
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ewan mcgregor!
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[04 Sep 2004|03:22pm] |
 Same sunset, but closeup of only the sky.
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[10 Aug 2004|10:51am] |
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| Number One |
[07 Aug 2004|02:50pm] |
i can't seem to carry a conversation anymore. long, lingering silences are often interrupted with trite little jokes, and my mind is left racing, thinking of a way, a gimmick, to keep my partner's interest. Through this all, I remain only wishing i could just forgo the bothersome formalities of famiarity, and skip right to the part where he could take my hand, without the need to ask, into the bliss of comfort. that's all i want: a number one. a person who doesn't need permission to steal some of my candy, or someone who doesn't make the friendly hand guestures and accentuated 'FAVORS' one normally associates with friendship. someone who is my automatic last call of the day. someone whose simple nudge or poke is infinitely more meaningful than a scrolls worth of words from someone else.
of course, this is all so ideal...
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[20 Jul 2004|02:43pm] |
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Hurray! Six Flags on Friday, then Disneyland & Copeland show on Saturday! I'm excited. Only thing that bums is that I can't watch fireworks that night or else I'll miss Copeland.
Watched "I, Robot" yesterday. Will Smith is so charismatic, I love that guy. the entire movie is really entertaining throughout the whole way. scary at parts (i hate technology) but maybe that's because i'm a pansy.
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| "and the answer is not always there.." |
[16 Jul 2004|11:12pm] |
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you start to think about the old you.hardened by the circumstance.the you that you used to be before you met this person..the you that was really you, but more of a mask you let yourself wear,because you were too afraid to be anything else. but then,things changed,you changed..and there was this person whispering all these wonderful things in your ear,this person kissing your tears away - there was this person who you loved. but theyre not there anymore.
but do you ever really stop loving them?
you try to forget about them,and you think maybe its working - but you can feel them in your heart. this little piece thats still in your heart. you try so hard to pull it out,but you cant..because its not ready to leave yet.
you start to question all the things this person has ever said to you. did they mean it? did they ever mean any of it? so you destroy the memories. finding fiction in each of them. placing them behind you one by one. but theres this one memory - you remember more vivid than the rest. a memory you couldnt even touch if you wanted to. it makes you smile just thinking about it,because you know it was so real. its the one memory that cant be ruined,too special. its the thought you think about on lonely nights,the one you fall asleep too, the one you'll remember for years to come. so you move it to the side,holding onto it,cherishing it. and thats the best thing you can do. sometimes memories are all we've got,and theyre too precious to waste.
you start wonder why you allowed yourself to love this person. what makes them so wonderful? you find their faults - (he was forgetful,he was late sometimes) you pick them apart,only to realize each one of these imperfections are so very dear to you. you wonder when you started feeling this way for this person. and you know in your heart you'll never love anyone else like you loved them. you cant even fathom the thought. but you will. you'll love again; just as much as you love them; you'll love someone even more.
but for now, the world feels on hold,and you wish it could be 3 weeks ago - 4 months ago, 1 year ago. when things were good,and his laughter was in your palms. maybe things will get better ; maybe theres more to this story than the prose that fell from your lips. maybe they're dreaming of you tonight as you write this. so what are you,helpless? hurting because you loved in full,instead of in moderation. it takes the moments like this in life to show who you are. to show you the strength you always possesed. ad to understand that, you feel the things you feel because youre human..
and the answer is not always there.
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| i'm new at this |
[16 Jul 2004|04:54pm] |
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hurrah, livejournal! let's be friends.
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